When My Nightmare Comes True

September, 19th 2011. I start my day with smiling, then i'd ready go to work.

It happened just like another bored day,,until in the middle of the day i,ve got a short message from my young sister, Lisa.

Mom is sick now, and Father take her from her office to the Hospital an She always saying the same word ' Seems like wanna die, seems like wanna die' as long the way. She is really missed you, Why you dont answer the Call from her ago?? How Could you!!


yeah,,actually i dont wanna be a stubborn kid, I've become like this probably cause of Mom too,,
as you know, mom always exaggerate for everything..
I said.

Not long after i've got a short message again, in this time from my Mom,

How are you there?? are you okay ?? now i'm at hospital with your Father,, They said that i must stay at hospital for a night,, Pity...

i read those short messages, but i didn't reply both of those messages. because i knew that would be long case if i reply.

September, 20 th 2011
While in my office, my Mom calls at many time, n when she call me again, i answered it,,

" Why you take so long time to answer your phone from me??" She said

" Pardon, Mom..i've got very busy with my job here, why you call me??"

" Nothing, i just missed you so much and i just wanna listen your voice, even deep inside i really really wanna to seeing you by my side right now, seems like i wanna die"

" DONT YOU EVER SAY THAT WORDS AGAINS, MOM.. I hate That. I 'll be back at Sidoarjo when i've got a lot of money n seeing you happy couse of that'' i said sadness

"Money was the second think that make me happy, You're the first,,"

i speechless.

" i have a dream to make our home better, so tou can live at there when you'd married" She continued.

" mmh.. hey mom,, there is a call,,i'll call you latter".

"okey, be carefull " she hang up her phone.

Of course You miss me,, we dont meet each other for 3 years,,You leave alone in here, In Makassar to continued my suffering life, you never giving me your attention since you decided to stayed at Sidoarjo for treat for Grandma which is neglect you in the past. Dont You ever angry to her? as i angry with you?? You dont know how its feel like.

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When the night comes,, my father's causin comes to me then give me a Nightmare

" Dont you wanna to comin' back in your home?? Your mother was leaviing both of us forever"."keep strong kid".

Mom.. I ever hate you, Dissapointed to you, but i can imagine that the only one you loves is Me,
Sorry if i never try to understand you,,

When i saw you at your Chest,, I completely angry ith myself,,totally
" God, why you just gave us 'The last Time' only from phone?? WHY?? "

Mom, sorry if never gave a happiness in your entire life, sorry if i bee'in someone else when you need me before, sorry if i couldn't make a smile at your face, I'm so sorry..